"Tear Drops are all the bad thoughts running out of your body"

I really hate life right about now...I need Anthony and he isnt talking to me...:-(

And This Long Line of Cars, Is All Because of Me

Everything is piling down on top of me. I dont know who to trust, who to talk to, I dont know anything anymore. I thought I could trust some people, but its like they dont even want to tlak to me anymore. In a way its kinda depressing. I dunno. Im coming home this weekend to work. Coming back every weekend from here untill I get out of school. Somewhat excited, kinda sad all at the same time. Well, I kinda just needed to vent a little, its all out now, so Im gonna go. Love you all, and later.

Graduation

Today was AWESOME...I have a few things I really REALLY want to remember about today, so I am going to do a list type thing.

1. A certain somebody was eyeing me up, at least thats what Jaci says. I can only hope.
2. It is a lot of fun to dance with new people, but dancing with people that know your abilities is so much more fun.
3. Not all things are as they seem. Just because a guy acts gay and tells you he is going to a gay bar with a close female friend of his, it does NOT mean he is gay. There is always a HUGE possibility that she is a lesbian, and he is only going for Moral support.
4. When your teacher is the photographer nad your name is caled to receive your award, rather than handing the camera off to somebody else, you should definitely pull a "Im going to take a picture of us myself. Now smile, and click!" Those are the times that you share that make your life fun.

Ok, the most important thing that I learned today is that if a friend tells you to talk to a great guy because you have a better relationship wiht him than anyone else there, talk to him. He wouldnt tell you the things that he does unless you are truly a friend, and maybe something more. Sometimes, your friends are right...believe them when they say "Its his loss if he doesnt like you. If he turns you down, he is crazy."

On that note,
Goodbye and Goodnight.

"I Just Dont Know What to do With Myself"

Ok, so as the title suggests, life is going crazy. I am not able to talk to the people I want to talk to, and forced to talk to the people I dont want to. Why must everything be flip flopped?

Escalator is Temporarily Out of Service, Please Use as Stairs

My dear and devoted friends. I am sorry I have been slightly neglecting this site. I have so much I want to say, but unfortunately have none of the patience required at this point to type it out. Sorry. If you would like to hear about my life in the next couple of days, call the cell...513-505-5822. Later my dears!

Sit Down, Shut Up, and Enjoy the Ride

This is going to be part rant, part fun, so be prepared for whatever. I am sick and tired of people getting on my case about stuff that is honestly none of their business. I go to the classes that I have when I have them. Get off my back about the fact that I missed my 12:30 class today, it was a voice class, I was sick, and she told me not to go. End of story.

Ok, enough of the ranting, I think. I am going dancing tonight. We were originally supposed to leave at 7:26, but I'm going to see if Jaci is able to leave at 7:00 so I can get there for the group class. We will have to see. Well, thats about all I have for now. Later all!

Look at Me, Im Sexy

Tonight was so AWESOME!!! I went to Arthur Murray for dance stuff. We were working on the Argentine Tango Routine tonight, and everything about it was a blast. I dance with Eric, my teacher, for the routine. We were goofing off the entire night. He said and did a lot of stuff that was completely adorable and sexy. Things like telling me to look at him and not everyone else, all my attention needs to be on him because he is sexy. He also did some really weird stuff. The most outrageous was when he grabbed his crotch right in front of me, looked at me, smiled, and said don' ask. It was really funny. He is very supportive.

Tomorrow I am going to lunch with Jaci after my music class, then to math. After that, I am going back to the dorm and waiting for a call from Jess and then its off to the studio for a night of dancing. If you need me, call the cell or leave some love here. Love you guys!!

They All Fall Down

Yesterday was Valentines Day. It was once again another day to remind those single people out there that they are pointless and have no place on the earth. Thank you for that lovely reminder. I don't know about you, but because I am single, I feel like I go through enough. Why do I need to be reminded about how unpopular I am with men by having yet another holiday that praises the one you love. Grant it, I said Happy Valentines Day more than once today, but not to a person that I truly love in a romantic way. Sorry, that was a long rant. I just hate being told how unsuccessful I am at life. Moving on.

Just a word for the wise, if you dont want to be involved with something, dont say you will do it or want to do it. Dont sit there and say that you would love to be out of a certain category, but then complain when they take you up on it. That really pisses me off. You claim you arent going to be successful because you dont push yourself hard enough, and then you praise the life that you live. I know the person I am talking about will never read this because I have lost all trust in her, maybe I will post this on my xanga too.

Oh yeah, and don't lie about your job in front of your friends to make it seem like you are more successful than they are. And if you do insist on lying, please make sure you remember what lie you told, that way later, when you start telling your mommy the story with your friends right beside you, the story you are telling her doesnt conflict with the story you already told.

I am ranting a lot tonight. I had a somewhat good day, but parts of it were horrible, Thanks for reading my faithful ones. Untill the next time, Goodbye and goodnight.

They All Fall Down

Yesterday was Valentines Day. It was once again another day to remind those single people out there that they are pointless and have no place on the earth. Thank you for that lovely reminder. I don't know about you, but because I am single, I feel like I go through enough. Why do I need to be reminded about how unpopular I am with men by having yet another holiday that praises the one you love. Grant it, I said Happy Valentines Day more than once today, but not to a person that I truly love in a romantic way. Sorry, that was a long rant. I just hate being told how unsuccessful I am at life. Moving on.

Just a word for the wise, if you dont want to be involved with something, dont say you will do it or want to do it. Dont sit there and say that you would love to be out of a certain category, but then complain when they take you up on it. That really pisses me off. You claim you arent going to be successful because you dont push yourself hard enough, and then you praise the life that you live. I know the person I am talking about will never read this because I have lost all trust in her, maybe I will post this on my xanga too.

Oh yeah, and don't lie about your job in front of your friends to make it seem like you are more successful than they are. And if you do insist on lying, please make sure you remember what lie you told, that way later, when you start telling your mommy the story with your friends right beside you, the story you are telling her doesnt conflict with the story you already told.

I am ranting a lot tonight. I had a somewhat good day, but parts of it were horrible, Thanks for reading my faithful ones. Untill the next time, Goodbye and goodnight.

"If Confusion is the First Step to Knowledge, I Must be a Genius"

Confused is about the only word that can describe me right now. No, I dont think that is correct. For the first time in a long time, this confusion is accompanied by happiness. I dont know how the two go together at all. Usually when I am confused, I am also sad and depressed, unable to face the world. Something in the past couple of days has changed that though, and I am now more eager to face the world with my new found confusion.

Ok, New thought:
Why is it that a person who claims they are a really good friend can make me feel like shit, but a person I rarely get to see or talk to can make me extremely happy? Shouldnt it in theory be the other way around? I dont get it, and I probably never will.

I think that is about it for now. I promise something else exciting will probably happen tonight, so there will probably be another post. If not, I will be back tomorrow. Thanks for taking the time to read about my pitiful life.

I Just Dont Know What to do With Myself

I am really confused right now. I dont know what to do. I love dancing, and I want to perform whenever I can afford to, but Eric wants to perform whenever he can period. I dont have the money to do every dance that comes up. He wants to do a routine in a month...one month, a routine. For Medalist ball, one that you have to be perfect for. I dont know fi I am capable of doing that. He also signed me up for graduation and said I am performing at Showcase in June other than the already planned Argentina Tango Routine. AHHHHH!!! I am really glad he has faith in me to do all this, but like I said, I cant afford it all. I wish I had money and that I wasnt already $12,000 in debt, but I am and there is no changing that. What to do, what to do.

What Do You Dream About?

I went dancing last night and then stayed the night at Jaci's dorm. We watched part of the olympic opening ceremonies, ate at Burrito Noches, played Lord of the Rings Trivial Pursuit, and sang really random songs. It was a lot of fun.

I have been thinking a lot recently about life. As hard as it is to do, Im just going to take things as they come. Im going to stop trying to push to get something that I feel I have nochance in getting. Like I said, from now on, I am enjoying the things that come to me.

I am getting ready to leav and go dancing again. Its been fun talking to you. I will write more soon. Love you all!

Feel Special

Ok, so if you are reading this, you shoudl feel really special because I care about you enough to tell you what is going on in my head. Xanga will still be updated, but more about the actual things I do in life. This is going to be a more personal blog. Once again, if you are reading this, I like you enough and care about you enough to tell you my innermost thoughts and feelings.

So, I dont know why I decided to do this. I have never been really huge on blogging, but I am really bored right now and I figured hey, why not. So, here I am. Im sorry if it takes a while for me to figure out some of the technical stuff, but if I get stuck, I have a Travis there to help me with it. As for now, Im gonna go play around with this. Im sure there will be another entry after dance tonight. Dance is where everything goes down. So much Drama and fun...its addicting. LATER!